Still practicing with this blog thing. I know that I am about 20 years behind but that's ok. I've been busy. Still am, but in different ways. Some day I would like to be busy with something that really floats my boat. I enjoy what I do but it doesn't satisfy me like it used to. I had a great job, loving getting up every morning and going to work. That ended because the county decided it wasn't worthy. What I do for a living isn't valued by many.
I would like to enjoy my relationship with my husband. I wish I had a relationship with my husband. He doesn't get it. He can just go on in life not worrying about anything. I can tell him I am not happy with our marriage and he can turn around and get into something else. It's difficult. I have thought about looking for another man to be with, but I don't agree with cheating. So I stay alone. My husband says he loves me, but I believe he is comfortable with the way things are. I am not.
My shrink said he doesn't think I would be in therapy if my marriage was better. The husband went once to therapy with me-hated it and won't go back. A little ego damaging considering that is what I do for a living. So little respect, validation.
So what am I looking for...who knows. Something that will be sustaining. Like a good meal. A good hardy stew or chowder. With some nice bread. Like what I made for dinner tonight.
More days, more time. More life.